This is What Happens When I'm Depressed

I just finished an interview this afternoon for a job. And I really felt like I didn't get it because of one question asked to me during the interview: "What is your priority, your studies or working with us?" Damn! I wasn't able to answer straight. If I said "work" I knew I would be lying, had I said "studies" then for sure I'm out.

So anyway, I decided to go to Starbucks and study instead (by the way, while I'm writing this, I have my finals exam tomorrow, pray kayo for me ha!). I guess out of disappointment on myself, I started scribbling. And I ended up writing a poem (yeah, again, I know). I didn't even have a topic in mind! So this is a bit raw, but it turned out to be pretty good.

The Forgotten Mermaid

A lifeless remembrance of a past encounter;
I dream more of it today than just usual wonder.

Like a steady, hard rock under the heat of the desert sun,
My mind sizzles with anger on what has been done.

Oh passion and love, I have revered thee for too long,
And yet it was you that led me farther along.

Humming now a lifeless song dedicated to a worn out memory,
Assisted constantly by the music of the sea.

- che
May 25, 2006

Lungkot noh?

Cheesy Poem...Brace Yourself

I was inspired to write this during class on a very boring morning. Para sa first and hopefully last crush ko sa Arellano Law School.

June Purple Vines

So quiet and meek; alone again you waited.
I almost walked over; “hello,” I almost said.
But I didn’t come near you; I didn’t even look.
Anyway, there you are, buried in that book.

The lights go out again; I can only see you from the corner of my eye.
I wonder if you noticed me at all; then later I just sighed.
No, of course, you haven’t, I know that well enough.
You have seen me, yes, but notice? What ridiculous stuff.

And then words are said out loud; they don’t affect you at all.
I steal a glimpse of you, enough to make me fall.
Deep in my heart I keep you, a place where no one knows,
In my mind you wander, where thoughts of you flows.

Contented, I shall be, though I cannot hold you now.
The dreams of you here in me will not bring me down.
So if you’re my impossible dream, then let it be.
I need nothing more than imagine you’re with me.

- che
May 20, 2006

TAYLOR HICKS: American Idol Season 5 Winner

I think he was probably one of the underdogs in the Top 12. Simon Cowell passed on him during the auditions in Las Vegas. He's had a few bad songs and a little bit more bad clothes on stage. And still, Taylor Hicks dominated the rest of the wannabe idols!

Sa totoo lang, I was already part of the "Soul Patrol" even before the name came to be. From his first audition up to the last song he performed, I have enjoyed them all. I can't argue that he's not exactly the one who had the best voice in the group, but he just grabs your attention and makes sure you don't look away. He's crazy! And I mean that in a good way.

But even if I'm a bit of a Hicks fan, Katharine was on my number 1 list for the longest time to win the title. She's pretty, she can sing very well and seriously knows how to project in front of the camera; but I guess, this season, that's just not enough anymore. And I think that's a good thing. If you think America made a mistake by choosing Taylor, well, that's your problem. I like Katharine, but I just like Taylor more.

Let me comment a little bit on the Finale...

I loved it. I think it was fairly better than last year. I loved the opening!!! The "award" giving was fun. I love that they brought the cowboys back!!! I love the girls' "woman" medley!!! I love the Burt Bacharach tribute! And naturally, I love the part where they announced who the winner was.

I didn't like the Meatloaf-Katharine duet! I mean, seriously, are the execs of that show insane? Meatloaf totally looked like he was ready to abduct Kat. I also don't approve of the Mary J. Blige-Elliot duet. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love Mary J. Blige. It's just that the 2 of them didn't work out. I think it would've been better if Taylor sung with Blige. They're both so alive on stage, it would've fit perfectly. Lastly, I didn't like the Puck and Pickler portion. It was entertaining, yes, but it didn't help Kellie with her reputation as a dumb blonde. I found it a bit insulting for her. But then again, maybe Americans love dumb blondes. I don't know.

So I guess, we'll be fussing over AI again January of next year!

By the way, I have the mp3 of Taylor Hicks' single "Do I Make You Proud". It's the performance on the Top2 competition, not the Finale. If you'd like a copy, catch me at YM, kaoru_girl.